Making the Most of It

What I am about to say is not a leadership lesson or an attempt to try to give the latest greatest blog entry...it is just a voice from the depths of my soul. I am with Seth on this one, it is definitely a time of deep soul searching for me too. Tonight, I found myself out on my balcony just weeping like I haven't wept in awhile as memories from my past dominated my thoughts. I have changed a lot in the past 6 or 7 years, the old country boy isn't just the little old country boy anymore. It seems that life has gotten a little more complicated than just hunting and fishing...bull riding and baseball...family and friends. Lots of things have changed drastically, and in the midst of rapid change you can sometimes lose yourself, and also begin to assess relationships superficially as well. It is easy to just skip through life when we should be delving deep and making the most out of every moment. Before we know it those moments are gone...forever.
I think back to the hundreds and thousands of relationships, connections, and memories that I have made in the past and how many of those moments I just passed off as irrelevant to "the now,"...I wish I had some of them back. The harsh reality is that they are gone along with many of the people...never to be seen or experienced again. The family, the friends, the colleagues, and the acquaintances...most of which I took for granted at one time or another.
My prayer is that God would truly teach me how to make the most out of every opportunity, God only knows how many more of them I have. To truly love my wife and son, to truly value every person and relationship in my life. To make conversations a true connection instead of a shallow gesture. To love God and people unconditionally, and to recognize the value of every moment.